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Inside, I knew something was missing.

Sister Goddess Patty, Age 54

I was born in a car in Milwaukee, Wisconsin, on my way to the hospital.

In those days (1960), since my mother gave birth before arriving at the hospital, I was considered “contaminated” and had to stay in the room with her instead of the nursery. She had often told me that I spoiled her hospital stay.

It’s interesting to think back on my earliest experiences, or lessons, on what it meant to be a woman in this world. Mostly, I think there were just too many of us for my mother (I’m the second of 7 sisters), and my father worked all the time, so we were left to “monkey see, monkey do” when it came to figuring it all out.

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I do remember, when I was around 9 or 10, my mother sat me on the couch and handed me what I think was a Time Life book. She asked me to read it and left the room.

I was a voracious reader as a kid, and so I absorbed this book like any other fairy tale I got my hands on. It featured diagrams and photographs of reproductive organs, sex, and birth – but it never occurred to me that all of this was related to myself, my body, or my own situation with getting on the planet.

One photograph I remember vividly was of a fetus in utero, floating, eyes closed and fingers curled. My major concern was, how did they get a camera in someone’s belly to take a picture of a baby? Also, the baby looked gross, nothing like any of my sisters. I felt a little sick.

That was the extent of my education on sex, reproduction, and the miracle of birth. I didn’t have any questions.

The whole thing seemed as fantastical as a story I was reading at the time called The Borrowers about a world of very little people living right under everyone’s noses and using thread spools for dining room tables and matchboxes for beds.

Around the same time, my father had a stash of Playboy magazines which we knew we were not supposed to read but pored through anyway. I knew that was a magazine for men. I knew that the pictures of women were for the pleasure of men. The people, the pictures, and the places seemed like an unreal world. Once again, The Borrowers seemed more real than anything in that magazine.

Then my parents got divorced and my father moved away. We were left with my mother who was overwhelmed. From what I saw, being a woman meant you were tired, lonely, stuck and broke.

The next few decades were a pretty rough ride.
A series of foster homes in my teenage years, because my mother couldn’t “handle” me and turned me over to the state to see if they could do a better job.
At 19, I took a two week trip to the Bahamas to reconnect with my father, who was working there. Although he left about six months after I arrived, I never did. The Bahamas became my home.
I married at 21 and had three beautiful children. We divorced a few years after the death of our youngest daughter.
I joined a 12-step fellowship that helped me to accomplish what I went there for, but there was little joy in my life.

By the time I arrived in my early fifties, I was doing everything a person was “supposed” to do, yet I was as unhappy as a cat in a room of hungry dogs.

Inside I knew I was missing something. That there must be something, some one thing, that I wasn’t doing or wasn’t understanding, that if I could just figure it out, things would change for me. But I didn’t know what it was.

I really had mostly given up, thinking this is just the way life is. Some people are just lucky and some aren’t. Some get hit with the suffering stick and some miss it all together. I figured that if you were smart, like I knew I was, you just accept it. You just have to try and be the best person you can and get through it.

I actually found out about the School of Womanly Arts through Facebook. It showed up in my newsfeed that someone I knew liked a post from Mama Gena’s page. Mama Gena’s School of Womanly Arts? Out of curiosity about the ridiculous name, I clicked.

I read the post. Ridiculous. Absolutely ridiculous. A “School for Womanly Arts”? What the hell would that be? Cooking, sex, makeup application? Why would a person want to be a woman anyway? And even if you did, how could someone teach you that?

Furthermore, who in the hell would take classes from a place called “The School of Womanly Arts”? What kind of woman were you? Especially if you were my age, 53. A woman who didn’t know how to be a woman? Oh no.

To say I was skeptical of this whole Mama Gena business would be a vast understatement. I looked at the website and figured all of the women in the pictures must be actors – all planned, I was sure – on some set somewhere. The pink? The feathers? Ridiculous, I thought, they should have found something less “girly.” The women in the videos, talking about how great their lives were now — good make-up, semi-good acting, and scripted poorly, I might add – who could believe all that? They should have made it more believable.

I just thought it was an outright scam, designed to take advantage of women who were really unhappy. (Actually, women like myself.) I thought it was so blatant. But I kept going back to that Facebook page. I trolled through the archives on the website.

I was attracted and repelled at the same time. There were two parts of me. A large part that said, “What world are these women living in? What woman is like that?” And another little tiny part of me kept saying, “What if it’s true? What if women could be that happy? What if they could be that friendly and loving toward one another? What would it be like if that were true?” That little voice started to crack me a little.

I still wasn’t on any bandwagon though. I went so far as to search the address of the school on Google Earth street view — if it turned out to be a vacant lot somewhere, I knew I’d be on to them. But it turned out to be an actual building. That honestly surprised me.

Then I found Regena’s TEDx talk. Hhhhmmm. That’s more like it. More . . . I don’t know . . . legitimate. In that talk, she posed a question, something like, “When you die and you are asked what you cherished about your time on earth, what will you say?”

That pulled me up short. Did I even have something to cherish about my time on earth? I’d survived. I made it through. I tried to do the “right” thing. That’s what I would have to look back on?

There was a phone number on that ridiculous website, so I called. It all poured out of me. What the hell? I was telling a stranger, some woman I didn’t even know, things about myself people that have known me for years don’t even know. Obviously, I was coming unhinged.

After assuring the woman on the phone that if this was a scam, I knew where the building was, I enrolled. Despite all of my reticence, I needed to get in there before Mastery filled. Because, “What if it were true?”

Right before the first class started I was an anxious mess. What was gonna happen? What would we have to do? Who would I talk to? Who was I going to eat lunch and dinner with? Would I spend all my time being apart from, instead of a part of? I had already done so much work – was this really going to make a difference?

And what about travelling to NY? That is as different from where I come from as night and day. Millions of people, lots of buildings, transportation, the flights back and forth, it seemed overwhelming when I thought about it. I just ended up organizing one weekend at a time. That was more manageable for me.

Once I got in that room and sat in the seat, and Mastery began, I knew I was right where I was supposed to be. Being a part of the community started right away. I made it a point to sit in different places all the time to get to know as many women as I could. These have become women in my life that I could call at anytime and they’d be there for me. And I am there for them.

How am I different since Mastery? Probably would be shorter to say how am I not different.

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There isn’t really an area of my life where I am not changed for the better, since Mastery. Relationships, sensuality, parenthood, career, money, body image, self-confidence, community — all are all outer manifestations of what has happened inside of me, through this program.

Sounds like a scam doesn’t it? Or like I’m brainwashed? I so get it – hang with me.

After Mastery, I wished I had been able to take this course in my twenties. My life would have been so different. But I’m grateful I finally got in there at 53. Mastery gave me the tools that my mother, and other women I encountered in my life, never passed down to me. I don’t believe they had these. And I know the word tools sounds funny, but that’s exactly what I got, and I use those tools daily. And I’ll keep using them everyday. I have a wonderful group of women who keep me practicing those tools.

The bottom line is, in Mastery I learned to love myself on a level I didn’t even know I was missing, and definitely didn’t know how to tap into.

  • I love my body and I take care of my body now – not sporadically, like if my weight gets out of hand, or someone says something about it, or if I want to impress someone, or if I have an attack of hypochondria after browsing WebMD, but everyday.
  • I now see and believe that what I do is special and it has a purpose in this world. My business is changing because I have changed. I am expanding and opening a new business now and I am having fun doing it. I get out of bed excited to see what I can create everyday. When I start hiring women, my desire is for it to be mandatory for each of my employees to take Mastery and for my company to pay for it.
  • My relationship with my children is different. I no longer look to my children to fill up some empty hole in me that could never be filled no matter how many achievements they have, how many times they call or visit, or what kind of gifts or time they give me. Because I love myself, the time we spend together is fun and meaningful and they can only add joy to my life, and they do.
  • Today I am part of an amazing community of women who are smart, supportive, and beautiful, inside and out. It is hard to believe the real depth of friendship and support in this community. It has to be experienced. I am just not literate enough to find the words to express the quality of friendships that have entered my life.
  • Because I learned and came to love myself, I am in a fun, loving, and supportive relationship with an amazing man. Me! I have to reread that sentence, and repeat it to myself again and again. I’m the one who used to listen to things like that and say, “Yeah right, lady. Tell us what’s really going on.”

I wish I could explain how all this actually happened in Mastery. But it’s an experience beyond explanation. And it would be like telling someone what is in the wrapped present before they open it. I want and I wish every woman I know to take that class, with a totally open mind, and a willingness to try. That’s all it takes.

If a skeptical person like me who has had experienced everything from divorce to death of a child, and read every self-help book ever written from the time I was 15 until 53, can have such a shift from the Mastery course, any woman can.

If your life is good, it will get better. And if it’s not so great, it will get better. For yourself and everybody in your life. If you feel it calling to you, do it. Just do it. There’s a reason. You don’t have to know the reason, just do it. And the money — if you extrapolate the cost of this course, out to the rest of your life, it will turn out to be the least expensive experience you’ve ever had, that has made the most difference. Like getting a Picasso at a dollar store.

And if you’re like me, you’re reading all this, browsing this pink website and thinking, “That’s not me. It’s so not me. I’m not that woman.”

It turned out I was right on that. I wasn’t that woman. I’m this woman.

Thank you so much for reading my story, and being a part of this community. I’d love to connect in the comments section!

 

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  • SG Andy February 1, 2017, 5:38 pm

    It seems, transparency is a love/hate relationship. I often wonder if the best way to hide is the inverse, through the reveal. You have dissuaded me of that notion. This article points to beauty being everywhere, love is everything. So eloquent. Your words are filled with heart and soul. For me, mastery/creation is an endless struggle with myself. Thank you for inspiring me.

  • SG Alex January 31, 2017, 9:50 pm

    Patty! What an inspiring story. Really enjoyed getting to know you a little better. I too had that experience of being attracted and repelled at the same time. You have so eloquently shared what that is like. Thank you.

  • SG Katariina January 31, 2017, 1:51 pm

    Patty, I love you and love learning more about your story. Your wit and love pour out of everything you do. I feel honored to be in Creation with you this year.

    Big Luscious Love,
    Katariina

  • SG Cori January 31, 2017, 11:12 am

    SG Patty, Thank you for sharing an even deeper level of your story with us here. I am honored to know more about your life story. I will forever be touched by that wonderful dinner we had in Miami at Sushi Samba that you so generously treated us to… I tend to be one of those gals that can easily “isolate” by going off on her own for meals, and it meant a lot to me that you were so inclusive and generous. You’ve inspired me to pay it forward by doing the same for other women. I will always remember your wit and zest for life in Mastery and Creation! You are one of the heroes of our class!

  • Karen Fitzgerald January 31, 2017, 11:01 am

    SG Patty,
    What a great story! I was probably one of those women in the videos you watched with the semi-good acting and the poorly scripted story. Why? Because it wasn’t scripted. It was merely all of us willing…no excited…to share our true stories to try to help women understand the power of this work and this sisterhood.
    I left a 25 year marriage to a porn addict, with all the rejection that implied. After that, I did the 12 steps (Alanon), a boatload of spiritual work, read every self-help book on the planet, but I couldn’t even talk to men. I needed to open my heart, but my fear kept it clamp shut.
    Thus, I found myself in this school with the weird name. When I first heard it, I thought, what is this? A pizzeria?
    Fast forward…My creativity opened up, as did my heart…not only to men, but to women. I have lovely men friends, a younger lover, I have become a Tantra educator, and I am helping women to open up all the possibilities in their lives. Oh, and I should probably mention that I am 64 years old…and feel younger than ever:). xo BBSG Karen (Glitzy)

  • Ellen January 19, 2016, 2:14 pm

    You have an amazing voice, Patty. You really touched my heart.

  • SG Fab May 11, 2015, 12:48 pm

    SG Patty,
    You are a revolution, love bomb, volcano, fireworks, ready to be started, set off, erupt and ignited. Wait, I believed it’s all happened already. Thank you for sharing your story. You’ve always cracked me up and open with your sassy raw funny brutal raw honesty. And now I have even more respect for you. It feels so good to know. Love, SG Fab

    • SG Scheherazade May 15, 2015, 9:58 am

      SG Fab,
      Thank you for seeing me. And letting me in. Love to you, Queen.

  • Leslie March 10, 2015, 2:18 pm

    Patty,
    Thank you for sharing your story. Although I have signed up for the next class of Mastery, I feel some ambivalence. I have conflicts on two of the weekends but your story has me realizing I need to just do it! I’ve been in a marriage for the last 40 years where I have has to give up so much of myself to make him happy. After all those years he walked out because I was beginning to find my voice and power. It’s time for me to find out who I am in my own right not someone’s mother or someone’s wife. Thank you for writing such a beautiful piece.

    • SG Patty March 12, 2015, 2:45 pm

      You are so worth it, Leslie. And what do you have to lose? Try it. What are four weekends of your life? Not much in the grand scheme of things….but if you open your mind, this might be as amazing for you as it has been for so many other women. The beginning of a whole life shift.

  • Yael March 5, 2015, 4:39 pm

    Thank you Patty! I love how your story unfolds in so many beautiful ways. Like a present:-) Thanks for being so generous in your openness. This really made a difference. xo

    • SG Patty March 9, 2015, 12:58 pm

      Thank you, Yael, for seeing me.

  • SG Claudine March 2, 2015, 4:24 pm

    Dearest Fantastic Beautiful Inspiring SG Patty,

    You are truly AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!

    XOXOX

    SG Claudine

    • SG Patty March 3, 2015, 9:43 am

      Claudine! The beautiful thing about this is that you can only see in me what is in you. And that is so true! Thank you. xoxoxox

  • Corneille March 1, 2015, 1:02 pm

    Your story is so touching…I have wanted to take mastery for some time but just haven’t as yet….I saw this wonderful video on a site called, http://www.upworthy.com , that was made to empower the feminine spirit….it was done by a group of ladies who pole dance as exercise…it is so beautiful…I thought of it while reading your story…check it out…

    • SG Patty March 2, 2015, 2:27 pm

      Thank you Corneille. I know what I needed to hear to give that gift to myself. For everyone its different. Thanks for thinking of me.

  • SG Fran, Persephone Rising February 25, 2015, 4:12 pm

    Oh Patty!!! This is absolutely beautiful! I am in tears…of empathy, of joy and from the huge desire I share with you that EVERY woman find this “ridiculous” school 😉

    Brilliant, gorgeously transparent post, my sister. So honored to be on this path with you!

    XOXOXO

    • SG Patty February 27, 2015, 10:49 am

      Fran, you are a special person in my life. Your choices give me courage AND hope. xoxox

  • Kady Dalrymple SG LadyKadyBloom February 24, 2015, 3:53 pm

    Wow, I am catching up on emails today and trying to clean out my inbox. I am readying all of the weekly emails and this one is one I am so glad I didn’t miss (like all of them). I know Patty and I have interacted with her at some of our weekends in Creation. She is awesome, this share is awesome. It is very inspiring and motivating and I feel so lucky to know her.
    Thank you Patty for taking the time to share your experience. It is special, like you.

    • SG Patty February 27, 2015, 10:49 am

      Kady, you always make me feel shiny and new. Love you Flower!

  • denise February 23, 2015, 11:54 pm

    looking forward to meeting new like minded interesting woman,

    • SG Patty February 24, 2015, 10:50 am

      denise,
      such a great feeling to have a group of “sisters” like you’ve never had before. it is beyond. looking forward to meeting you one day! xoxoxox

  • Karen aka SG Badass Superstar Karen February 22, 2015, 12:15 am

    This was a delight to read, Patty. It’s always a pleasure to read anything you write. From the moment I heard your voice in Boot Camp, I was drawn in. I loved hearing more of your story. Thank you for your generosity in sharing your experiences.

    • Patty February 22, 2015, 4:56 pm

      Love you BadAss! Xoxoxox

  • SG Jane February 20, 2015, 11:17 pm

    Patty,
    I love love love your writing! You have an amazing gift! Not only is your story compelling but I really appreciate how everything was so thoughtfully and eloquently pieced together into this article. I hope we meet some day!

    • Patty February 21, 2015, 11:06 am

      Sooner or later, we will SG Jane. This is a close and loving community and if it is meant to be it will OR even better!

  • SG Love & Acceptance Lisa February 20, 2015, 2:24 am

    Wow!!!! what a beautiful story. I can totally relate to your story. I am also one of 7 children but the difference with me is I have 4 sisters & 2 brothers. Being one of the younger ones (#5, extremely quiet & good natured) I fell through the cracks as my mother always would be so busy with trying to care for all of us. In fact she was never really a mother to me in the sense of the love, care and protection piece. I thought I never was wanted but was just a product of my parents having sex. As I learned sex/having children was not for a woman’s pleasure but for a man’s. Being Catholic she didn’t believe in abortion. Growing up I longed for the love, connection of family, & sisterhood as I saw other families have.
    I can honestly say now after taking mastery last year with you, it was the best $6,000 I’ve ever spent. I am healing many years of physical, sexual & emotional abuse. For the first time in 52 years I can honestly say I love myself and my life.
    You were very much a part of this happening for me. On mastery weekends I would watch and chat with you. You and other SG loved, accepted me just as I am & became my sisters. My desire of having the love, connection of family & sisterhood has finally been manifested.

    • SG Patty February 20, 2015, 2:40 pm

      Thank you so much for sharing your story with me (and us) Lisa. It turned out to be not too late, but just in time. Sending you love. xoxox

  • SG Nathalie February 19, 2015, 9:29 am

    Oh wow! Thank you SG Patty for your transparency and for taking us on your ride. It brought tears to my eyes. Just beautiful. ~ SG Nathalie

    • SG Patty February 19, 2015, 4:19 pm

      Thank you Nathalie. This transparency has been totally my pleasure.

  • SG jessica February 18, 2015, 8:54 pm

    Dearest beautiful, strong and brilliant Patty – Reading this brought me tears, goosebumps and laughter. Your beautifully written story is an incredible act of transparency. I love how we can feel your pain and pleasure. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing with us. I am so grateful pink is now your color and we are in CC together. I am thrilled I have been able to spend time with you and connect with you. I cannot wait to read YOUR next chapter – and most importantly, share it with you! Sending you so much love. xoxo

    • Patty February 19, 2015, 9:23 am

      Jessica, my bold and brave sweet friend. It is the example of a woman like yourself going for it, that so moves me in this community. so looking forward to seeing you soon. You’re a light! Xoxox

  • Sister Goddess Lorraine February 18, 2015, 8:39 pm

    Sister Goddess Patty,
    Your story touched me in many ways. I also took Mastery after many years in a 12 step program. I found so many good healthy similarities yet Mastery took my life to a whole new level of being. Tools indeed is the right word to use and eventhough I have been passing on tools to my 18 year old daughter, it is no replacement for attending the class. I’m looking forward to taking Mastery again next year but with my daughter this time.
    Thank you for sharing,

    Sister Goddess Lorraine

    • Patty February 19, 2015, 9:20 am

      An SG daughter and mum duo? That’s my dream too. Sending you lots of love for your bravery in becoming who you were meant to be.

  • Melissa February 18, 2015, 7:22 pm

    Reading your story brings tears to my eyes. How amazing and joyous it is that you took the step to sign up for Mastery and how you are now living your life to it’s fullest. Best wishes to you and your endeavors. So happy!

    • Patty February 19, 2015, 9:18 am

      Thank you, Melissa. It was so scary, but I’m so glad I did!

  • SG Zoe February 18, 2015, 1:33 pm

    Patty, thank you so much for sharing your story with such raw truth. Your spirit really shines through. And thank you for sharing your skepticism as well. I’ve struggled with similar resistance even after starting the programs, i.e. that I’m not “that woman.” But amen to being “this woman”!–and to the support of the SG community in figuring out who that is, and celebrating her. I love getting to have you in Creation Course with me. xoxoxox

    • Patty February 19, 2015, 9:15 am

      Thank you Zoe. Here’s to all the flavours of woman! Xoxo

  • SG Deborah February 18, 2015, 12:09 pm

    Patty, this is so gorgeous and expresses so many of our journeys from suspicion and disbelief to this blissful state of ever deepening self love. I am so happy to get to hear your story and look forward to meeting again. Love and respect to you, goddess.

    • Patty February 19, 2015, 9:18 am

      Thank you, sweetness for the love and respect. Right back at you.

  • SG Adrienne February 18, 2015, 10:13 am

    SG Patty! You are wonderful and brave and glorious. Thank you for sharing your story, especially your raw skepticism. Your transformation is so powerful. From the first time we talked in VPBC I was taken with your fierce determination to always be yourself, and this story shows me that you are still doing that every day… only having way more fun with it now! I’m starting my own business too now… and I’d love to hear about yours! What are you doing?

    • Patty February 19, 2015, 9:17 am

      Thank you Adrienne. PM me on the SG site and we will catch up. Love to hear what you are up to and share my own biz story with you.

  • carolien February 18, 2015, 2:46 am

    Wow Patty, what a beauty you are!

    • SG Patty February 18, 2015, 9:49 am

      Thank you. I like to think that we can only see in others what we have in ourselves…only a beauty could see a beauty. Thank you.

  • Ranier (Sg Honey YumYum Amiel) February 17, 2015, 11:24 pm

    PATTY!!
    You are the best. Oh girl. I love knowin more of your story and seeing you highlighted here. YES YES YES!! That is all. I fell in love with you in boot camp and then watched you bloom (as a big) in mastery last year. Fuck yes girl. Gah. So proud of you and the beauty you are making of your life.
    Xo
    R

    • SG Patty February 18, 2015, 9:48 am

      Thank you Angel Artist! I will never forget that wild hair flying in the middle row. x’s and o’s to you and your fabulousness.

  • SG Sara February 17, 2015, 11:00 pm

    SG Patty,
    You are such a glowing light in this community. When We ended up seated next to each other and partnered up for the “thank you” exercise, it was one moment of many where I felt so deeply connected on a soul level to someone I had never even met. It was amazing to hear more of your story and I’m even more amazed by YOU!
    When I had heard in Mastery you were traveling from the Bahamas, I knew I certainly had nothing to complain about with my short NJ commute. If you could get on a plane each weekend and fly to NYC, I knew I could arrange childcare, work etc and get my butt to class! I’m so grateful I did!
    Lots of love!
    SG Sara

    • SG Patty February 18, 2015, 9:47 am

      I’m so grateful you did too, Sara! Thank you, sweetness.

  • SG Stephanie February 17, 2015, 10:38 pm

    SG Patty – your story came at precisely the right moment for me. Thank you for your transparency and for sharing so much of your Goods. You always seem to have the right medicine for my ailments and your words here were just that. Salve for my wounds. Thank you and I will see you very soon! XO

    • SG Patty February 18, 2015, 9:46 am

      Stephanie! See you in a few and very glad I will! xoxox

  • genna February 17, 2015, 6:51 pm

    Oh my dear sweet sassy Patty! This is totally beyond brilliant and gave my chills, chills and my giggles, giggles. I love you. I am so proud of you. I am so inspired by you. You are total delight. To be embraced by you, whether in your arms or in your beautiful uprides and constant support, is true love.

    Forever yours,
    gennarose xo

    • Patty February 17, 2015, 8:36 pm

      This makes my night complete! Love you Genna, sending everything beautiful to you and your sweetie! I thing I told M and S and now I’ll tell you! I always think of looking back over my shoulder to you three queens, Enthralling Three! love youXOXO

  • Candace February 17, 2015, 6:40 pm

    I love you, Patty! Iggy Azalea has nothin’ on you. You’re the realist! Thank you so much for being exactly as you are. And for being so brave to push through the empty lot fear and then to reach out and connect with so many women in so many ways. You friending me and teaching me how to spring clean was the most wonderful introduction into this community.

    • Patty February 17, 2015, 8:33 pm

      Candace,
      You’ve got it going on! Even more than a drop of the divine in you!
      Xoxoxo

  • SG Jessi February 17, 2015, 6:31 pm

    SG Patty, what a story, what a ride! And you are how old?!

    I saw you in Miami, we didn’t meet…so many amazing women, so little time! But you looked awesome; fierce; fun; flirty; fit and a woman with that magic sparkle and definitely not looking 54 years young!

    Thank you for sharing your story

    Go you, you rock!

    • Patty February 17, 2015, 8:32 pm

      Jessi,
      next Miami I’d love to meet you, if not before then! Thank you!

  • Esther Fink February 17, 2015, 4:53 pm

    SG Patty what a gorgeously told story about how you came to Mastery. So honored to be in this course with you. You shine. You are funny as hell. And most of all you inspire me.

    • Patty February 17, 2015, 8:15 pm

      Thank you Esther! You inspire me too! Love how that works!

  • SG Laura February 17, 2015, 3:23 pm

    My fairy Godmother SG Patty! You are the most incredible, inspiring person I know and this blog post is fabulous – just what i needed to read today. You amaze me everyday and always have so much profound wisdom and deep compassion to offer. Thank you for taking me to Miami in November and I am so grateful to you for introducing me to Mama Gena and the School. I’m terrified but soooo ready for Mastery! love Laura xoxoxoxo

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 3:52 pm

      Totally my PLEASURE as they say at the biggest hotel in town! LOL I’m more excited for your incredible journey than you can imagine. It’s almost here. Love to you sweet girl!

  • S.G. Tisha February 17, 2015, 3:20 pm

    S.G. Patty!!!!
    Wow, WOW! Beautifully said…every word! Thank You!
    A Favorite Frame: “… if you extrapolate the cost of this course, out to the rest of your life, it will turn out to be the least expensive experience you’ve ever had, that has made the most difference. Like getting a Picasso at a dollar store.”
    Both my mother and aunt signed up for Mastery 2015 in Miami…Kansas will never be the same thanks to SWA and the courage of MG saying ‘YES’ to her outrageous desire. The ‘Yes’ of every single woman, standing for/ investing in themselves, opened the door for me in 2014 and now the women of Kansas have a runway leading to the banquet!!! Holy goddesses…”THANK YOU” to each and everyone who came before me!!!
    Just a note: Mastery was NOT a one shot moment for me…almost a year later, Mastery is still ‘working’ for me. Yes I use the tools, I stay connected and the power of what has been created and what SWA continues to generate, still works on my behalf…It is a magical, brilliant creation!!!
    Tears…

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 3:51 pm

      Tisha, I am so happy for you! You are helping to give Kansas women a do-over one YES at a time! Soon that State is going to be known for a lot more than cornfields. Wish I had some magic red shoes to click together and come see you right now. xoxox

  • Fiona February 17, 2015, 2:56 pm

    Wow what a lovely read, I wish for every woman to experience the Mama Gena style and spirit. She is a great role model indeed. I add in what I can of her gusto into my coaching sessions and have transformed myself and many clients with loving being a woman in in this world we live in.. xxxx
    Another Sister Goddess. in France, still doing my holy trinity every day to myself.

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 3:49 pm

      Every country needs a Sister Goddess like you! France is blessed!

  • SG Marie February 17, 2015, 2:27 pm

    I desire to be as courageous as you!! Beautiful blog.

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 3:48 pm

      Where do you think I learned this from? Yes, it was watching you! xoxox

  • BSG Glitzy Cougar Karen February 17, 2015, 2:19 pm

    And one more thing, since I posted this quickly…you are a genius for your self reflection, for your courage, for your honesty. Thank you, Patty, so much for an inspiring post.

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 3:48 pm

      Thank you! xoxo

  • SG Meredith February 17, 2015, 2:10 pm

    Good Goddess this is breathtaking. Eternal gratitude to you for sharing your journey and yourself with us. You made in an indelible mark on me in Mastery and the magic continues with your warmth, support, brilliance and humor. Miami reminded me again how remarkable you are and our time by the pool is etched in my mind. You are one in a million.

    Sending you so much juice and love.

    XOXO

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 3:47 pm

      Meredith! Nothing gives me more pleasure than to turn around or look ahead and see you, G, & S. The Enthralling Three! xoxoxox

  • Mindy February 17, 2015, 1:59 pm

    Patty!!!! You are a rock star pirate!!! Thank you for sharing your story and the beauty of who you are. You are so delicious and it is an honor to be on this journey with you!

    xoxox

    Mindy

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 3:46 pm

      Miss Magic! Love you and thanks for being such a great role model!

  • SG Joëlle February 17, 2015, 1:58 pm

    Love reading this, Goddess. I waited to land for about the same amount of time, and I the day I said “yes” to this community was the day my life changed around. I am SO honored to be sharing this journey with you, and for being able to bear witness to “now see and believe that what I do is special and it has a purpose in this world.” You sure do. Love. Love. Love you!

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 3:45 pm

      My friend, love you right back!

  • cristina February 17, 2015, 1:48 pm

    Patty, I don’t think we’ve met (yet) but love your post. Like others have said, I love the way you were able to put into words some things that are just so hard to express about the schoool, why to pay $6000 for Mastery, the resistance that so many of us have felt and why its worth letting it be shattered. My favorite frame: “Like getting a Picasso at a dollar store.” Brilliant!

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 3:45 pm

      Cristina, thank you. You are so right about that resistance. I keep remembering that what always seems to follow resistance is something magnificent! If I move…. xoxoxo

  • BSG Glitzy Cougar Karen February 17, 2015, 1:15 pm

    SG Patty,
    WOW! What a great post and what a wonderful description of what this school has been for us, for the thousands of us have learned. The sisterhood, the support, the expansive possibilities. A year after I was led to it, I invited my daughter. She thought I was nuts, but she skeptically said, “Yes.” Four years later, she is the head of enrollment there…yes, that would be Lauren Abrami:).

    And just for another twinkle, my mom passed 10 years ago. She’d had a VERY tough life. Several months ago, I was talking to a psychic and told her that my life had just taken off because of this wonderful group of women. She looked at me and said, “Who do you think sent you there? It was your mother!”. I could feel the truth of that. I feel it now as I write it. So for our mothers, our daughter, ourselves, we are helping to heal the 7 generations.

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 1:25 pm

      Karen,
      Lauren was the one I spoke to when I first called the school! Yes, if it hadn’t been for my mother, I would never have had that experience. Thank you.

  • SG Joan Champion of Pleasure February 17, 2015, 12:52 pm

    SG Patty: I almost cried several times while reading your story, the first when you wrote that your mother said having you in her room ruined her hospital stay. Gives me chills. Having taken Mastery myself and served on Team Pleasure since then I can relate to the changes you experienced during and since Mastery. I’m so glad you gave yourself that gift. I’m glad I gave myself that gift too. This is an amazing community of women. I value everyone I meet here. I desire our paths cross in person some time! Sending you love and thanks for your transparency in sharing your “story”. It’s the story of all of us even if the facts vary.

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 12:55 pm

      Thank you Joan. I know we will meet. Joan is a special name to me, the name of my angel daughter. You are blessed.

  • SG Hot Helen February 17, 2015, 12:49 pm

    SG Patty,

    This is so inspiring and I took Mastery with you!!! I have to laugh. I did the same thing and thought the same things about MG. Are these people for real on the interviews I saw on youtube? She did want to go to NY to be an actress. Then there was the TEDtalk. I saw the realness there. OK. Let’s give it a try. And I’m going through the same thing now with B-school and as I take the next steps in my life. Thanks for the inspiration as I have been on the fence. Reminded of the process for MG and well, it seems very similar. And I have never regretted the decision on enrolling in the SWA. Sending lots of love to you Beautful!! And looking forward to saying hello in person to your wonderfulness again someday! XOXO SG Hot Helen

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 12:54 pm

      You are going to rock B-School. xoxoxox

      • SG Hot Helen February 21, 2015, 12:03 am

        Thank you! It’s true! 😉

  • Car0line February 17, 2015, 12:31 pm

    I’m so happy for you, Patty. I knew nothing about Mama Gena, just needed a destination for my escape for a weekend and she offered it, but I found every word relevant, and relevance was something missing in my life. To my surprise, I signed on. During the weekends I did not say much, and I kept thinking, this would have been great when I was younger, but it’s not going to make any difference for me now — my life is pretty settled and I’m too old for major changes. Boy was I wrong. There are not many experiences I’m aware of which affirm one’s true self. This was one of them.

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 12:53 pm

      CarOline. When you said, “Boy was I wrong”, big hugs to you cuz “Girl you were right”! LOL

  • Erica February 17, 2015, 12:30 pm

    Whoa! What an amazing journey. I feel super fortunate to know you. You’re a fantastic human being and I am so happy that Mastery and the “Mama Gena” experience allowed you to embrace the fabulousness that is you. I’m still straddling that fence about Mastery and taking the plunge; however, your beautiful candor and experience are both encouraging and awe-inspiring. xoxoxo

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 12:51 pm

      Thank you. I’m so honoured to know you.

  • Jeyan February 17, 2015, 12:29 pm

    Patty

    Great story… Thank you so much for sharing… I think we all have our own version … it seems that we haven’t really lived our lives until Regina has knocked on our doors… She has the keys but we had to walk thru the door with our eyes wide open… Your radiance is glowing beyond words… I’m so happy to be a part of your life!!!

    Love you
    Jeyan

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 12:51 pm

      Love you Jeyan.

  • SG Stacy Raye of Sunshine February 17, 2015, 11:56 am

    Oh SG Patty!!!! This post is amazing! Brave, inspiring and honest. It’s such a great post to share with women who are totally new to Mama Gena and the School! Thank you for sharing and for shining so bright!!! ⭐️⭐️⭐️

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 12:10 pm

      Thank you so much for the love on this! Just seeing that face makes me smile. You’ll always be one of the amazing three to me!

  • Heather February 17, 2015, 11:44 am

    “I wish I could explain how all this actually happened in Mastery. But it’s an experience beyond explanation. And it would be like telling someone what is in the wrapped present before they open it. I want and I wish every woman I know to take that class, with a totally open mind, and a willingness to try. That’s all it takes.”

    I think it is an act of self-love to question offering thousands of dollars for this course. Especially when a syllabus or details of the weekend are not provided. You are being asked to offer thousands of dollars under a veil of some secrecy and a bit of blind trust. To be hesitant and uncertain is a sign of self-care, in my opinion.

    I believe when have gained volumes from the course because they express this. I begrudge no woman who feels she has invested in something great for herself. Fantastic for her. But $6000 is a lot of money that can be invested in so many ways for a woman. It’s love to ask questions for yourself.

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 12:09 pm

      Heather,
      Thanks for sharing. Its so true that its self love to ask questions for yourself. I encourage anyone with questions to ask them. I did. Yes, I was abrupt …. and I say that laughing now because I don’t know how I would have handled me if I was on the other end of the line…I wanted the FACTS, DETAILS, WHERE, WHEN, HOW, WHO, CURRICULUM, and NO FLUFFY stuff! AND I mean it!
      It’s not for everyone but I’m so grateful it was for me!

      • Heather February 17, 2015, 12:24 pm

        SG Patty,

        Your story is wonderful. I’m so thrilled at your journey. And, I’m so happy the experience was for you ad meant for you.

        Yes! I’m all about the details. Were the details ever provided for you? Or, did you go in more on the blind side. I’m speaking from a great place of hesitance as if this is the right place for me. Honestly, I have a bit of rage at the pricing.

        Blessings on your journey! You’re beautiful!

        • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 12:50 pm

          Heather,
          Love this…”a bit of rage..” I don’t think anyone could have had more rage than I did at just the NAME of this school and all the pink. So call them. And ask. Then you’ll know. I can tell you in my experience you will get out of it what you put into it. I was at that place where I was willing to try. If you want to know, call them. It might, just as well as it might not, be for you.
          If it is, I know this community, and I know that we will meet one day and have a good laugh. Thank you for your blessings.

  • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 11:37 am

    Still following your fabulous story (life) and loving that gorgeous smile you have.

  • Yelimar February 17, 2015, 11:36 am

    Oh how I love this Patty!!! I didn’t even know you had felt such resistance. Since day one I felt your openness. I love how you showed up anyway. What a bold move!

    You are a gorgeous woman inside and out. I am grateful we meet in mastery. I want to thank you for your support on the boards when I was in one of my deeper swamps during mastery.

    Sending you love. Thank you for sharing your story.

    XOXO,
    Yeli

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 11:41 am

      Thank you beautiful. Everytime I see those smiling eyes, I remember too. Miss you.

  • SG Magical February 17, 2015, 11:34 am

    Oh Patty, thank you so much for giving yourself the opportunity to become a much much grander and loving and happier “version” of Self you could have ever imagined. Thank you for sharing! I know there is an even happier more of everything “version” for me… isn’t it amazing how we just KNOW it is there, I love it, it is our internal GPS.

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 11:36 am

      You are so so right. That little voice is just the better version of ourselves trying to be heard.

  • Tatiana February 17, 2015, 11:26 am

    This is the best blog post ever, Patty! My favorite frame is “I wasn’t that woman. I’m this woman.” Made me cry!

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 11:35 am

      Thank you Tatiana.

    • Yelimar February 17, 2015, 11:37 am

      I know right. So beautiful!

  • SG Anastasia (Love Creatrix) February 17, 2015, 11:24 am

    SG Patty, you are brilliant as always. I adore and admire you as well as always inspired by you. Thanks for sharing your story and I’m so glad to hear about your successes. I wish even more come your way!

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 11:35 am

      Thank you Anastasia. I’m so happy to know you and to share this with you.

  • SG Theresa (Fierce Mama) February 17, 2015, 11:24 am

    Patty – So good to see your smiling face here and your story is so real and touching. Your truth radiates into our hearts right off this page! WELL DONE!

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 11:34 am

      Thank you Fierce (and Foxy) Mama!

  • SG Hannah February 17, 2015, 11:23 am

    Wow, SG Patty! This was amazing. I’ve loved getting to know you in Mastery and Miami and have always been taken by your glow. Thank you so much for sharing this story. You are an incredible writer and I’ve loved reading your blogs, and hearing your back story blew me away.

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 11:32 am

      I’m a reflection of the best of you. Mwah!

  • SG Hot Mess Michelle February 17, 2015, 11:08 am

    SG Patty!

    Oh how I love you. To say you are “not literate enough” is saying something of the depths of change you’ve experienced. I brag that you are the Goddess of the Upride. Such a blessing. Such a straightforward peace about you. I’m so happy for you! You are truly a pleasure to know. I thank Mastery for you and all the amazing women I can call on for love, support, and encouragement.

    Until we meet again xoxoxox
    SG Hot Mess Michelle, The Goddess of Sweet Seduction

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 11:32 am

      Loving that saucy pic of you sweetness. I’m so happy for you too!

  • SG Anne la Tigresse February 17, 2015, 11:05 am

    Love this, SG Patty! Your account is so alive, heartfelt and eloquent — it’s such a pleasure to read you again. xox

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 11:31 am

      Love you sweet girl! Looking forward to seeing you soon.

  • SG Mona February 17, 2015, 11:03 am

    Beautiful story…you’re beautiful…I am so happy you found this group. It took me five years to sign up for mastery, I called the pussy palace every year but never committed, always not enough time or money. Finally, Mary said to me “Mona, when you committ, your life will start to change” and boy has it ever!!!!! I have now done two masterys and my desire is to do the Creation Course. I am 59 and living my best life ever!!!

    Mona

    • SG Patty February 17, 2015, 11:30 am

      Way to stand for yourself Mona. Sending you a warm hug.

    • Yelimar February 17, 2015, 11:41 am

      SG Mona,

      OMG it took me 5 years too!!!! I friggen’ love you woman. I cross my fingers, pray to the goddess, and deeply desire to do Creation with you!

      Sending you bucket loads of love,
      Yeli